hey jealousy

I have jealousy.

I have jealousy towards people who have furniture in their homes. I look across at the other condos adjacent to mine and envy them as they lounge with bowls of popcorn watching a movie on their TV.

I have jealousy towards people who are in the same state.. no wait, same timezone.. as their loved one. Like people in the grocery store who share pushing their cart around and interlock their free hands. I have been comforting my good friend out here as she has been going through a break up and now is back together with him, but I want to shake her by her shoulders and slap her around and say, UM HELLO! AT LEAST YOU GET TO SEE YOUR GUY!

I have jealousy towards my husband, who gets to live in a fabulous apartment with all of our furniture and kitchen stuff. I mean, why should he have the pots and pans? Is he going to wake up early to make a batch of homemade tomato sauce? I think not. He is a 5 minute drive away from Hough's Neck, a gorgeous stretch of shore which overlooks the Boston skyline. I mean, seriously?! So what. I can see a mountain... take that.

I have jealousy towards people who have a variety of clothes in their closets. I rotate between 5 outfits at work... one for each day. Luckily I don't think the students notice. I haven't accessorized since August. What's a necklace again? I forget..

Okay, okay. I'm not jealous. I just miss it all. I didn't realize how much I relied on certain things, like clocks and spatulas and my husband , and everything else I am without right now. I didn't realize it until it was all gone. I am fully aware that I chose to live this way so I only had to move once, but man it is hard! But pretty soon I will be able to move home (FYI home=Massachusetts!).

Today marks my half-way point until I move home for good!

Yayy!